Some Reality That No One Believes

Life is not about what you think. Maybe It is a lesson for you every time. I am a girl who learnt things from her last couple of years. I always thought why all the bad things are happening with me but then I kept saying myself is, maybe these are the lessons what Almighty wants to teach you. I have come to this blogging world just to express myself. I am that kind of unfortunate girl who doesn't have a friend to express her feelings whether in a happy matter or sad.

Almost one and a half year have lost from my life just because i didn't get chance in a public university. Honestly I worked so hard but in our country we have ten times double students than the seat of public university. When I was in college, the teachers were careless about us. They didn't take our class properly. I can say that there was not a single teacher in a certain subject who taught one chapter properly. I made a very good result in my Secondary school so got  admitted in the public college in my town. I knew the education system was not so good there still i got admitted only because of their fees are less than any other college. After getting admitted i realized the education system was much more worst than I thought.

After that I started to study of my own. I took help from some private tutors. I used to wake up very early morning to attend the class of a private tutor. I worked so hard because I wanted to get admitted in a public university. But as I said before, Life is not always what you think of it.
Two years passed so quick and suddenly I realized that my Higher Secondary exam is knocking at my door. I started to study more but somewhere in my mind I was so afraid of it. I remember the day when a girl of my class didn't get any friend to register for HSC exam so I called her and said, ''you can register with me.'' Now I think that was the biggest mistake in my life I have ever made.

Exam appered. Almost everyone was taking help from their friends at the exam hall. Teachers were not very strict to them. I was the first bencher girl. That girl was sitting behind me. She took help from the other girls and whenever i asked for a little help, she gave me wrong answers. Chemistry exam was so hard. I called her for some help but she didn't help me. I kept calling but she didn't respond to my question. I became terrified. Almost everyone was taking help because the question was hard. Some of them were also cheating. I was the one with no help around. I gave that exam of my own. We gave exam of 12 subjects. It took almost one and a half month. I was so frustrated that time.

After finishing the written exam, practical exam started. It was the time when I realized maybe I am the most unfortunate girl in the whole universe. The teachers of the practical exam literally behaved like dog with me. I remember it was physics practical exam. I just made a little mistake of drawing a circuit. The teacher told me that he wanted to hang me with the fan if he got a rope near his hand right now. I literally forgot to cry that time. Same thing happened with chemistry exam. The girl I mentioned before made a team for the lab work. I didn't have a single friend. Everyone made a team with their friends so I had no option rather than joining her team as she needed one more person for the team. She did all the work by herself and told me wrong answers for our report. When I showed my report to the teacher ,He gave a big cross in my page and I saw tick mark on their page. I kept asking myself what was my fault?? Again I started to do the lab work,this time I was alone. I made the lab report and finally got a tick mark. But their was also the cross mark on the previous page and I remembered whoever make a messy report will get less marks than others.

I don't remember what I exactly felt that moment. After exam I just came out and saw my mother. With a smiling face I told her that my exam was good and I saw a great relief in my mother's face.
After all these I still kept my faith to Almighty that He will save me from any kind of destruction but it is life, you have to face it what is written on your fate.

From very childhood my life was all about study,education and all. So this was one of the main exams in my life. I kept crying in my prayers so that nothing unexpected situation happens. I need to get A+ in all subjects unless everyone will treat me as a looser. I was so afraid thinking of these. The results supposed to out within two months. This time was so hard for me. But I didn't know that this hard time is like nothing, more are coming.....................