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After my Higher Secondary Exam just passed I did not get an one day relief. It was a big exam, we prepared for 2 years for it but just when the exam ended,we had to think about the coaching class for university admission test. That admission test is so hard that we had to take coaching. What we read for HSC is not enough for the admission so we had to study in a different way but the same books of HSC. Literally it was like 100times hard than HSC. I packed my bag for leaving town with my mother because in my small town there are no good coachings for Engineering University. We headed to the capital of our country. Most of the students went there. My parents got me admitted to the best coaching for university with quite an amount of money. Many students had no place to live there so they rent some local hostel or room that was so nasty place, the security was not good also. I have my aunt's house their so me and my mother went there but now I think I should go for the hostels because my aunt's house was like hell to me.
They were not welcoming. From the beginning I felt like they consider us like burden. We had to go to the coaching by bus. The roads were very busy, all the time buses,trucks,cars are passing recklessly. My mother was so afraid of crossing road. We had to run for the local bus and jump into there, Huge people were on the bus every time, we did not get seat anytime so me and my mother kept standing in the bus for the whole way.
In my aunt's house they did not give me proper food, some time I kept starving but no one noticed. My mother used to make some noodles for me. When I seat for dinner my aunt and her husband talked with me very rudely, Indirectly they used to insult me and my mother. Hearing these I could not eat properly, I could not talk back to them because my mother said not to argue with them as we were living at their house.
Days and months passed. My coaching was going not so good for me because I found so hard to compete with the students. Around 20 thousands students took coaching classes there. Everytime I gave exam I was around the first 1-5 thousand students but that was considered as a very bad result. I needed to took my place among 500. I worked so hard, kept awaking the whole night for study. But the next day my Aunt said the light in our room made disturbance for her. The slight light went into her room so I need to switch off my light early. I was so sad thinking that how can I read now as most of the time in my day I stayed at coaching. My father then give me some money to buy a lamp. After buying a lamp I read with that but it was a huge pressure for my eyes.
When my father heard about the bus problem, he requested my aunt to give a ride to my coaching with their car as we do not have a car. I remember the day clearly,that was a very sad day for me. My aunt asked for money to my father. If my father will give her money for the car maintainace then she will give me ride. That was not a little amount. My father had to agree. After that me and my mother went to coaching in their car but they were not regular at it. Some time we took bus or taxi but my father had to continue the money.
As the day passed by, My HSC result came out. That was one of the worst day of my life. I got A- in chemistry and A in physics. I got A+ in other subjects. My mother kept crying all day. I literally felt nothing that day. It had to happen as whatever happened in the exam. But I also heard that the girl who was next to me got A+ in all subjects. Almost all the girls who gave exam in my class got A+ in all subjects except me. I realized that I would not be able to give admission exam to any public engineering university as they require A+ on math,physics,chemistry and english. I was devastated. All the money, all the hard work went into vain. My neighbors, my aunt indirectly insulted me for this. Some moments I could not bear their taunting so told them about the incident happened in the exam hall but no one believed expect my parents.
I could not believe that I will not get the chance to give any exam for public engineering university. I cried alot in my prayers. I was so frustrated and depressed then. I had none of my classmates around me as they were busy in their own lives. I decided to give exam in public university for any pure subject but that was a totally different preparation. I took preparation for engineering. I had only one month left for University. I again started my preparations for public university but I knew that was quite impossible that time but HOPE is the thing that keeps a man alive and I am not an exception.
After my Higher Secondary Exam just passed I did not get an one day relief. It was a big exam, we prepared for 2 years for it but just when the exam ended,we had to think about the coaching class for university admission test. That admission test is so hard that we had to take coaching. What we read for HSC is not enough for the admission so we had to study in a different way but the same books of HSC. Literally it was like 100times hard than HSC. I packed my bag for leaving town with my mother because in my small town there are no good coachings for Engineering University. We headed to the capital of our country. Most of the students went there. My parents got me admitted to the best coaching for university with quite an amount of money. Many students had no place to live there so they rent some local hostel or room that was so nasty place, the security was not good also. I have my aunt's house their so me and my mother went there but now I think I should go for the hostels because my aunt's house was like hell to me.
They were not welcoming. From the beginning I felt like they consider us like burden. We had to go to the coaching by bus. The roads were very busy, all the time buses,trucks,cars are passing recklessly. My mother was so afraid of crossing road. We had to run for the local bus and jump into there, Huge people were on the bus every time, we did not get seat anytime so me and my mother kept standing in the bus for the whole way.
In my aunt's house they did not give me proper food, some time I kept starving but no one noticed. My mother used to make some noodles for me. When I seat for dinner my aunt and her husband talked with me very rudely, Indirectly they used to insult me and my mother. Hearing these I could not eat properly, I could not talk back to them because my mother said not to argue with them as we were living at their house.
Days and months passed. My coaching was going not so good for me because I found so hard to compete with the students. Around 20 thousands students took coaching classes there. Everytime I gave exam I was around the first 1-5 thousand students but that was considered as a very bad result. I needed to took my place among 500. I worked so hard, kept awaking the whole night for study. But the next day my Aunt said the light in our room made disturbance for her. The slight light went into her room so I need to switch off my light early. I was so sad thinking that how can I read now as most of the time in my day I stayed at coaching. My father then give me some money to buy a lamp. After buying a lamp I read with that but it was a huge pressure for my eyes.
When my father heard about the bus problem, he requested my aunt to give a ride to my coaching with their car as we do not have a car. I remember the day clearly,that was a very sad day for me. My aunt asked for money to my father. If my father will give her money for the car maintainace then she will give me ride. That was not a little amount. My father had to agree. After that me and my mother went to coaching in their car but they were not regular at it. Some time we took bus or taxi but my father had to continue the money.
As the day passed by, My HSC result came out. That was one of the worst day of my life. I got A- in chemistry and A in physics. I got A+ in other subjects. My mother kept crying all day. I literally felt nothing that day. It had to happen as whatever happened in the exam. But I also heard that the girl who was next to me got A+ in all subjects. Almost all the girls who gave exam in my class got A+ in all subjects except me. I realized that I would not be able to give admission exam to any public engineering university as they require A+ on math,physics,chemistry and english. I was devastated. All the money, all the hard work went into vain. My neighbors, my aunt indirectly insulted me for this. Some moments I could not bear their taunting so told them about the incident happened in the exam hall but no one believed expect my parents.
I could not believe that I will not get the chance to give any exam for public engineering university. I cried alot in my prayers. I was so frustrated and depressed then. I had none of my classmates around me as they were busy in their own lives. I decided to give exam in public university for any pure subject but that was a totally different preparation. I took preparation for engineering. I had only one month left for University. I again started my preparations for public university but I knew that was quite impossible that time but HOPE is the thing that keeps a man alive and I am not an exception.
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